Black birds resting on wires overlooking Lower Broadway, Newark on Wednesday, Nov. 4. (Photo credit, Josie Gonsalves)
Faith: Lost and Found
I used to ask God why It had to happen like that
I was already struggling and I thought he had my back
I used to pray that he protect my favorite people in the world
My uncle pie the champion and my grandma my favorite girl
For a while everything was going alright
Yeah still struggle and strife but not a death in sight
Then one day I got that call and all I could do was fall
Fall to my knees and just cry
screaming asking God why
Why would you take him from me?
You know he was my everything
He gave me all a girl could need
Unconditional love for free
My life felt so incomplete
When I lost him, I lost me
I couldn’t eat I couldn’t sleep
At times I didn’t wanna breathe
This shit ain’t make no damn sense!
My heart went straight to defense
I ain’t believe in God, no more
Had no more trust in the Lord
What the fuck I’m praying for?
Tell me what you’re aiming for?
The fam was already poor
What the fuck you take HIM for?!
Got me going through this shit
Showing me how hard it could get
Man I don’t deserve this shit…
With age I started to mature
Understanding what things happen for
Started showing gratitude
to everything I had and more
Turns out we weren’t really poor
In all reality we had more
More than some people down the block
They ain’t have no home or no socks
And had to sleep on the cement
But, at least my bed is decent
At least we had a home to sleep in
And a bathroom to pee in
Fast forward 2019
Finally found the courage to chase my dreams
I started writing raps and things
innerstanding the behind the scenes
Of what was really God’s Plan
He said Don’t trust in no man!
Put all your Faith in me
I’ll give you all that you need
